“One of the secrets of success is to refuse to let temporary setbacks defeat us.”
Yesterday was what, I believe, most would label as unsuccessful.
I’m lacking consistency these days. Despite massive water drinking and detoxifying food eating and actual hardcore working out, my weight has plateaued. I can’t push through whatever mental barrier it is that’s keeping me from working out consistently. I don’t prepare myself for success as well as I should, I don’t go to sleep early enough, thus causing me to be too tired to get up and work out in the morning. I plan more than I take action.
So yesterday I had a sort of breakdown about all this. I’ll spare you the crazy cat lady behaviors, but let’s just say it involved hyperventilating and compulsive list making. Oh, and some binge eating. I mean, it was mostly healthy food binging, but binging it was nonetheless. And I didn’t work out at all. So it’s back to day 1 of my 21 day challenge.
I began wondering if I’ve taken on too much, too soon. Especially after reading this article. But really, what choice do I have? My situation demands that I proceed this way, because, for years now, my life has been too much–too much food, too much sitting around, too much feeling sorry for myself, and too much closing myself off from life.
I’m not quite sure what it is that’s holding me back. I know what I want, I know how to get it, I have everything I need to get it. So what’s the hold up? All I can do, I guess, is keep trying. Seeing relatively small setbacks like this as just that. Not reasons to completely give up and go buy some cats and a muumuu.
I know this time is different. This journey is different. It feels more permanent, it feels more whole, it feels more like a lifestyle change than a diet or wanting to lose weight for superficial reasons. This feels like wanting to be healthy, reclaiming my future, becoming the person I’ve always felt I am inside.
So why do I doubt myself? Why do I get bogged down in the details? Why can’t I channel the Nike marketing Gods and just do it? Why??
It’s Friday, I’ve got myself a gigantic iced coffee and a gigantic to-do list geared towards getting me back on track. Which I plan to do…now.
Got any suggestions on how to just freakin’ do it, dear readers? How do I take all of these good intentions and turn them into good actions?